Thanks for the great post! That’s a lot to chew on!

“When you block out the bad, you also block out the good. You can’t be selective…it just doesn’t happen.”

I did this for years. It is still not easy for me to open up fully. It takes me longer than most to build up that kind of trust in someone.

I’d like to think that I am that calliber of freind to my friends, but the question of “Do they know it?”, I am not sure. I need to work on that.

He had been my whole world for 20 years and he has built this fantasy about what’s going on in his head, though, that he’s the victim of a wife who gave up on our marriage for no reason. I guess I did give up. He makes himself out to be this innocent guy who just wants to play on the computer for stress relief, taking the PSI Life courses and I’m the one controlling his behavior. Some of our friends wonder what had happened and when I told them I came off sounding like I was a nut. Actually I wouldn’t have believed it myself if this had happened to someone else.

I took the time to tell him how I feel and how things were occasionally. But to no avail. I didn’t avoid telling him that I love him or that I needed him and wanted him. I told him I would support him with anything except for this. I wanted him if he was willing to treat me like I deserve to be treated. As his wife not as some PSI Zombie.

And yes, I can see how it feels like PSI IS controlling him. There were consequences to his behavior and losing your wife to a 9 hour a day computer game habit and internet relationships with his PSI friends/groups was a consequence to his behavior. He chose to hermit up with a computer and live with this PSI fantasy everyday and it was just too much. They are sad and lonely people little people who feel as if they had nothing in their lives before PSI and unfortunately he’s on that path to his destruction. And even more unfortunately, I paid the price too. I lost my husband, my marriage and my financial security because of the choices he’s made.

It doesn’t seem fair. I either live miserably with a man who’s essentially cut himself off from real life (IE me) or I live miserably away from that man and at least the bills get paid. Computerized foreplay wasn’t my idea of fun and apparently I didn’t have equal video capabilities to hold his interest.

This was the cost of PSI; MY MARRIAGE, My husband and our future together.

I hate divorce and I hate PSI Seminars.

Are you coming back to Center Pointe this Sunday or next? It would be great to see you and your family again.